3 Pillars to Healthy Healing

Questions like these, much like a hamster on a wheel, make us feel like we’re on a road going nowhere. We have tons of questions, some with no answers. Whether the answers are known or unknown, I’d like to help you with your path toward healing.

Painfully, I’ve watched many amazing people become shattered by betrayal and others paralyzed by the pain. So how is it then, when we’re literally picking the shrapnel out of our own body, can we get started on our journey to healing? I get it. At times all I had was two speeds: sitting and breathing.

Yet, I want you to know it IS possible to heal. You can find your path out of pain and into wholeness, regardless of what happens in your relationship. So, what does it take? Over the years, I’ve seen some of us as partners become stuck in the struggle, while some eventually thrive. When I’ve looked closely at what might be the primary differences between these two partners experiences, several key factors came to mind. But before I share them, I feel like these three ideas should come with a warning label.

WARNING: The things you’re about to read are not for the faint of heart. They may cause anxiety, fear and a sense of overwhelm. You’ll probably cry…maybe a lot. If you think about stepping toward these three pillars it will take tremendous courage, support and hard work. Should you choose to pursue this path, you may experience growth, healing and dare we say joy. You’ll be surprised by your own strength and sense of empowerment. You’ll begin to change. No matter who you were before the betrayal you may actually find you grow into someone better and more confident; a richer, wiser, version of yourself. At some point, you may actually begin to like your life again.

In the Chapter 4 of my book, Intimate Deception: Healing the Wounds of Sexual Betrayal, I share how it’s possible with help and support to dig out. (page 66)

“What’s happened in my life and in the lives of other betrayed women who have grown through their pain is a by-product of something called posttraumatic growth. It’s mind-boggling how trauma and transformation can coexist. Striking evidence now shows that when betrayed women are given the proper care and resources, they learn how to adapt and recover from adversity.1 It’s how we find our voice, inner strength, freedom, and peace of mind as we deal with the ups and downs without becoming invulnerable, indifferent, or insensitive. Resiliency comes after we’ve been unraveled and put back together again. Something can happen in us that goes well beyond surviving, it’s how we find our thrive. We can become a deeper, richer, and wiser version of ourselves. Posttraumatic growth is not something any of us go looking for, yet strangely we change through this crucible of uninvited pain. While I don’t ever want to walk this road again, what I have walked through has changed me—for the better. No matter what has happened to you, if you’re willing to grab a shovel and roll up your sleeves you can find yourself and begin to live again.”

Pillar One: Safe People

We all have friends or family, people we trust and rely on. How deep can you go with them? And then, how much of the betrayal should you share? On this journey we need a few reliable, good, souls that some refer to as “safe people”. We need support. We need people that will walk this journey out with us and not judge, condemn, blame, or fix. People that will be our champion and our sounding board. I don’t know about you, but I realized that my true north had gotten skewed throughout my marriage to Connor. I couldn’t trust my own judgment. I needed safe people in my life that could help me sift through my choices and find the ones that were right for me. I don’t know what I would have done without those safe and loving people in my life.

But how do you know who’s safe? Great question. Dr. Henry Cloud and Dr. John Townsend wrote a book called “Safe People.” It’s a great book that can help us with our people picker. Spoiler alert! It may not be the people you think it is. Who doesn’t want their immediate family to be safe? Sometimes that’s not the case. Or what about our best friend? Are they safe? That may not be the case either. Here’s a list of some basic points taken from the “L.I.F.E. Recovery Guide for Spouses” by Melissa Haas.

Safe people:

• Accept and love me unconditionally.
• Are comfortable with my feelings. They don’t try to lighten the mood or distract me or do something to stop my tears. They offer a shoulder, and they cry with me.
• Don’t gossip about me or my spouse.
• Don’t judge me or my spouse.
• Don’t try to fix the problem or offer solutions. They simply listen, encourage me, and pray.
• Don’t need my love or approval to be okay. They handle my angry outbursts and stormy emotions with appropriate and loving boundaries
• Are aware of their own brokenness. Humility and integrity are the hallmarks of their character.
• Are more concerned about relating to me and loving me than about giving me advice.

I sat down with this list a long time ago and mentally ran each person through it. I learned that some people I hoped were safe, weren’t. Others that I hadn’t given much thought to, actually were safe. We need some safe people to walk with us as we’re wrestling through what to do.

Pillar Two: Betrayal Trauma Support Group

Don’t you just love coming home after a long day, get‘tin in your sweats, grabbing your favorite meal and relaxing with a tv show or a book? Me too! That leads me to the second thing we need which is the emotional equivalent of that. Becoming part of a betrayal trauma support group is vital to feeling fully understood, known and validated. When we’re understood, it provides the comfort we’re looking for. Many people have said that when they walk in the door of their support group it’s like they can take a big breath. They can share if they feel like it and just relax. Sitting among others that get it, who are walking a similar path as yours, makes such a difference. We can be completely real and no one is going to look at us sideways. We need that. We also need a place where we share our story and receive empathy, compassion, and care in response. We need relationships. When we receive a positive response from those we’ve walked through deep pain with, we begin to heal. Literally, new neuropathways in our brain replace feelings of aloneness and devastation with safety and hope. It’s amazing! It may take some hunting but whether your support group is face to face or over the phone – it’s vital.

Pillar Three: Betrayal Trauma Trained Counselor

I want you to find a counselor for YOU. I want to see you find someone that’s in your corner and helps you talk through specific situations and struggles. They can help you find the answers that best fit what you’re going through. You need a safe place with a counselor who “gets it”. Someone with the right training and background will understand betrayal trauma and your circumstances fairly quickly. While support groups provide one pillar of strength – a good counselor can give you the one-on-one time to walk the day-to-day complexity of betrayal out. You wouldn’t walk into the emergency room and expect to be healed simply because you’re sitting near doctors, nurses, and other people in pain. You’d need a doctor to come, read your chart and understand your specific wounds and symptoms. Not only that but you wouldn’t have a brain surgeon do surgery on your heart. You’d want someone who’s specializes in heart surgery, right? Trust me, there are many great counselors out there. But not all of them have been trained in sexual addiction and betrayal trauma. I’ve found that people who seek out counselors with special training in these areas, find a sturdy foundation to work from. Check out apsats.org and iitap.com to search for a trained counselor in your area.

As I’m sure you’ve gathered, it takes a lot of time and energy to heal. It may also take some financial investment in yourself. You’re worth every drop of sweat, every tear, and every dollar. You’re an amazing person with goals, dreams, and talents. You’re worthy of truth, honesty, and love. Healing and wholeness are waiting for you. Fight for your healing with all you’ve got. Be relentless. Courageously pursue growth. You’re worth it.

1. Deb Laaser et al., “Posttraumatic Growth in Relationally Betrayed Women,” Journal of Marital and Family Therapy 43, no. 3 (2017): 435–47.